Sometimes life is a word too painful to describe. I just want to share this story I got from a forum. It is a powerful statement of uncertainty in life because sometimes in our lives we also felt this way.
And the post goes like this:
Suicide! Think about it every day. If you call it “thinking”! Always been a dreamer in my life, never a doer or achiever. Dreamers don’t have a place in society. Only achievers do. Only they have a name tag stick to them.
We all come to this life knowing not why we come in the first place. Some convince themselves with religious answers, some with mystic answers, some never find an answer, some ignore the questions in the first place and some are always looking for some answers. Life is mysteriously painful. It’s a kind of pain hidden inside every flower and animal getting killed by an ignorant.
Confusion is not lack of clarity. That is too simple definition for a word so profound. Confusion is the beginning to wisdom some they say. Confusion is the first step to learning and knowledge others say.
Never good enough! Perfection is an illusion. Practice makes perfect. Do not seek for perfection, seek for excellence. Do they even know what they are talking about?
Who are they? Why are they important? Why should they be important? Do they know better than you? Do they even know at all? Do you even know at all?
Lack of organization! quite a paradox. Confusion and unorganized behavior, speech and writing are all too clear in my life. Too clear! Confusion being clear.
Society is rotten. Self interest, Tried to convince myself that “self interest” is natural and necessary. Hated it from the beginning of my childhood, tried to be self interested, tried to be a so called “DARKWORKER”, it didn’t work.
I say bullshit. I need to find my own answers. I need to find my own definitions and my own way of living. And when I find it, if I ever will, I know that no matter what I am going to die at the end of this superficial survival game.
I have searched for GOD about 4 years. Never felt the smallest feeling of love within me, never had a spiritual experience, and never had anything to do with god in the first place.
Misinformation, Brainwashing, Can’t stand it anymore. I’m too weak to continue this wrong indoctrination.
And this is the worst situation. Have you ever felt too weak to live or die?
You either live, or die. But both require strength. When you are too weak to pick any of them, when you are too afraid to act to make a decision that is what I call worse than Hell.
All these letters that I typed, not words because a word has a specific meaning, but I only see them as letters because letters are meaningless in their very own nature. I do not see sentences any more. I see letters. I do not see ideas anymore, I see letters. I do not see something any more. I see nothingness.
All these letters that I typed! Just to ask you something more meaningful.
Every breath that you take is a choice that you make to live, although you may not know.
So I am asking you, please tell me…
Why do you decide to breathe every second of your life? Why not just hold that breath and let it all go B L A N K?
Well this remind me of me sometime in my life, too many question asked no definite answer. I still question life as of today but I’ve learned to embrace moments that is not going on my way. Life is not always at its best, situations happen, circumstances beyond our control, and question on life’s existence.
I don’t really yet know life at its fullest and I don’t think I will fully understand it but one thing’s for sure. Life will continuously exist no matter what. We all have bad experiences on people, on society and all that brought us heartaches in life. That’s part of life learn to accept it or try to resist it all your life. We are living in imperfect world, it’s nice to be idealistic but learn to be realistic.
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I think most people at some time in their life question everything. The only thing to remember is that your death is inevitable and the life you are living now is just one out of many – it is a roller coaster so you might as well enjoy the ride.
You’re right jane it’s up to us on how to live our life. It maybe not that simple at times but we have to deal with it. Thanks for droppin by jane
I only ever wanted a simple life.. a few simple indulgence… enough time to read, sleep and watch my kid grow… enough love to be happy once in a while… enough faith to actually want to live.
I may not exactly be the epitome of patience… but after trying so hard and losing too much — most of the time i wonder, how much longer must I still wait?
bliss must be when you finally cease from existing because you finally cease to wait.
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Silentstorm314 waiting is a part of the game of life. Waiting for something happened requires patience and doing something rather than waiting is diligence
“Searched for GOD about 4 years. Never felt the smallest feeling of love within myself. Never had a spiritual experience. Never had anything to do with god in the first place.
Misinformation. Brainwashing. Can’t stand it anymore. Too weak to continue
There r many parts in this wonderful post of yours that I relate to,
taking just one of them and postin here …
WONDERFUL post!!
I was as if, I was doing the talkin…I cud relate to ALL of that was said!
We question life sometime in our life, me also has this mentality sometime in my life that’s why i post it because it relate to me so much.
John, I don’t know who wrote this…but they are severely depressed and need help – Chrissy
Yap chrissy but as the saying goes questioning can lead to enlightening, I know in time he will realize what really he’s own purpose in life.